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Shit. Here I am again.

Tue, 11 Jan 2011 21:09:08 -0500

I just found pictures (well I didn’t find them, brother did on his phone. No idea how they ended up on there.) but they were all of us. The memories I had long forgotten or buried in the back of my mind. So here I am not able to look away. I just keep scrollin through all of our pictures together unable to put the phone down and walk away. So now, in my mind, it’s august and I’ve just returned from my 3 month trip to georgia over the summer. God how I just wanted to see you. But then all the shit happened and I still haven’t seen you since June. Ut kills me cause with you i was the happiest ive ever been. The 7 months we were together i still remember everyday. I just want that happiness back i want the time back. I want my fucking life back. Now I sit here with these pictures, these memories, and this smirnoff. Trying to figure out which one to put down. But I can’t seem to let go of either. God. So many memories so many feelings. I miss her with every part of my being. I miss her voice I miss her smile I miss her birthmark that was placed oh so delicately on her hip. I miss her thick hair which resembled so much like a dying fire. I don’t want to forget. I don’t want to remember. I just don’t…I don’t know. Whyd he have to tell me about the pictures? Why did he let me have his phone? Why did I go through all 134 pictures of us when I knew Damn well what it would do to me? These are the questions I have to which no one has any answers….all I can think of, all I want to see, all I want to dream and all I want to feel….is you. So here I am again with these memories and this drink. Feeling like august, knowing it’s not.

Here I am and will always be. Alone.

Don't you see

Tue, 11 Jan 2011 14:05:58 -0500

Between you and me, I think it’s pretty sad How we’re singing the same song. Don’t you see what you meant to me? You haven’t listened to a single word I’ve ever said…

So I’m bout to just pass out. Long ass dAy with the car Tryin to replace headlights, the...

Mon, 10 Jan 2011 20:03:49 -0500

So I’m bout to just pass out. Long ass dAy with the car Tryin to replace headlights, the stereo and trying to replace that fucking transmission mount…Fuck man. Also tired of the dumb shit people do and say. I’m done. think whatever but I honestly tried. Takin a shower than bed. Oh I need to talk to someone bout this summer! :Dddd

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Ready.

Sun, 09 Jan 2011 11:04:10 -0500

I’m so fuckin ready for “you” to come into my life. Just please do it before next January. The pain of being alone when I leave is far worse than having to leave someone. So please “you” don’t be selfish.

Home.

Sat, 08 Jan 2011 19:04:04 -0500

And Im in a great fucking mood :D when am i ever happy when im here? rarely and i am now :DD

shit.

Fri, 07 Jan 2011 16:31:20 -0500

cant find my pts’.

fml.

So i was on Skype with this girl (Sammi) for almost 4 hours and...

Fri, 07 Jan 2011 07:04:00 -0500

So i was on Skype with this girl (Sammi) for almost 4 hours and she really put things in perspective for me :) I shouldn’t look for love, Love will always come and find you. You shouldn’t be miserable while your single. Live it Up be free. Do what you want when you want without someone trying to hold on to you. Enjoy your single life and let nothing hold you back

We spoke about a little bit of everything and it was great. i told her about my situation and what happened to me in the past and as she did the same to me. I listened to her as she listened to me. it was good to just meet a total stranger and someone who can just listen to your every word without judging.

So yes i had a fantastic night :D

Fight.

Fri, 07 Jan 2011 02:07:33 -0500

adding on to my last post. In addition to working out, I’m also goin to go off my fighting skills and grow on them. I know for a fact if I didn’t move my fucking hand in that tournament, I would gone further. Bullshit. I’m doing mui thai.

Drill and such

Fri, 07 Jan 2011 02:03:16 -0500

I have drill this coming weekend. I’m pretty excited for it. I’m excited just caust I know were goin to be Doin PT (physical training) and lots of it. I love working out mornings in AIT are what got me through my ex who was supposed to be there for me while I was gone. But shit happened and all I know is working out gets my mind off alotta shit and I like that. I like the feeling of my body being completely dead after a hard workout. And I would like to have my AIT body back as well. I was toned and ripped :) I want it back.

That’s my rambling at 2 am. I may ramble on later lol

Skittles...Whyyyyyyy

Thu, 06 Jan 2011 18:37:55 -0500

You and I have been together for a long ass time. Why all of a sudden now when I steal 5 of you from my brothers pack you decide to fuck me over?! See I thought we had somethin but you left me and the only thing I have left of us is this horrible stomach ache. Wtfff?

O. And btw I hate you!!!! XD

baww threads on 4chan. fuck you :)

Thu, 06 Jan 2011 15:46:00 -0500

Damn.

Thu, 06 Jan 2011 15:45:22 -0500

so i tried hacking deeper into my phone. i failed and everything was erased

fml.

you win this time iPhone…

"Age Is But A Number, For Love Is Eternal."

Thu, 06 Jan 2011 14:42:00 -0500

“Age Is But A Number, For Love Is Eternal.”

- Cody

Someone

Wed, 05 Jan 2011 12:46:15 -0500

I just need someone to tell me I’m not crazy. Someone to just tell me that I’m not a fuckup.

I just…I just want to sleep my insanity away…

Fucking Sleep.

Wed, 05 Jan 2011 12:15:57 -0500

Come back to me. i know i said i could do without you. that I’d rather go without. but I fucking need you. I haven’t slept since Sunday. and I cant take it anymore. I lie down on my bed and that’s all I do. just lay there. I need to sleep. for this 70+ hours of my brain not getting a break. of these thoughts that just run rampant in my head. they need to cease for they are driving me to the brink of insanity. I’m not asking you anymore.

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Shit. Here I am again.

Don't you see

So I’m bout to just pass out. Long ass dAy with the car Tryin to replace headlights, the...

Photo

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Ready.

Home.

shit.

So i was on Skype with this girl (Sammi) for almost 4 hours and...

Fight.

Drill and such

Skittles...Whyyyyyyy

baww threads on 4chan. fuck you :)

Damn.

"Age Is But A Number, For Love Is Eternal."

Someone

Fucking Sleep.

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